More dreams . . .

Lately, my dreams seem to be more focused on Labor and Delivery. In one dream, I went to the hospital and as I was checking in, there was some clueless guy at the registration desk who claimed he didn't have my paperwork. I started to get agitated, because I had been there already, so they should have a file on me! Finally, he found it, and then I had to give a urine sample. Yeah right! I'm gonna pee in a tiny little cup. So, I did it, and was then directed to the waiting room. Not a labor room, the WAITING ROOM! It was full of other women in labor, too. By then, my contractions had stopped, but I was determined that I wasn't leaving without a baby, so we stayed. By the end of the dream, no baby.

Two nights ago, I had an amazing dream. I delivered my baby ALL BY MYSELF - at my grandmother's house! I was in the back room, on the bunk beds, and I did everything myself, including cutting the cord and delivering the placenta. Best of all - it was all completely painless! My deceased grandfather was even there. It was quite empowering, although I have no desire to have an unattended birth - get me to the hospital with doctors and midwives! Then, later on, my baby girl was a little older, and as always seems to happen, she was advanced for her age. She was standing on her own and talking. In fact, she said something really smart-alecky to Steve, and I remember popping her chubby little hand and scolding her. She didn't even flinch. Oh goodness - is that what I have to look forward to???

At other times, I think I let out all my aggression in my dreams. I've yelled at and hit Steve (and woke up feeling so guilty and terrible), cursed out old co-workers (oh Lord, please forgive me!), told off and cursed out various family members (including last night - Lord, help me!) - just did things I would never actually do in real life. I try to stay pretty calm and mild - I hate that pregnant women always get labeled as being angry and hormonal. Better to be awful in my sleep than in real life though!

I'm headed to the doctor today - we start our two-week appointments now. It's coming down to the end!